Last week

This blog needs to be honest. Last week STUNK diet-wise. I tell you what. I could not control my eating to save my life. I had no idea what was going on. Finally, I stopped and said, "Girl, what is eating at you that is making you eat so much?" I figured it out, took it to the Lord, and now I am lighter and back on track with my healthy eating.

What does 'off track' look like for me? Not good. I had Mexican three times with queso each time. One time I had two beers. I had pizza for lunch one day. I had a sub and chips for lunch one day. I had Coke about four times. If I am drinking Coke, there is something SERIOUSLY wrong with me. I am not a soda drinker. This weight is not from drinking calories. I topped it all off with a day at the movies where I had a whole box of Milk Duds, half of a Butterfinger, half of a sugar cookie, and then went to barbeque where I had two muffins, four ribs, french fries, and cinnamon apples. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I'm all for grabbing some Mexican once a week, but how in the world does one expect to get fit eating that crap?! By the way, now I don't need to ask, "Why couldn't I sleep and why did I get a migraine on Friday?" Um....who could sleep with all that sugar in their system and what body wouldn't rebel after eating so clean and then getting a dump of toxins.

I got back on track yesterday and I only gained one pound over the week of horror. I didn't tell my trainer how off track I was last week, but I did ask him to join me at the grocery store to make sure I stayed on track. He got my cart loaded up with Paleo goodness and I cleaned all offenders out of my house and we are ready to go. Have I mentioned that I love my trainer. It's serious trainer love. He completes my training. For reals.

Alright..I hope to start posting some new successes on the board. Here we go, AGAIN!

The Sled Drag

She'll be coming round the mountain when she comes. Instead of driving six white horses, she'll be dragging the sled when she comes! Nothing like action photos to make you realize how much farther you have to go. I definitely feel smaller in my mind than I look (as evidenced in a few photos I just received). Onward and upward.

On a positive note, I just bought a bunch of t-shirts from Old Navy in a large. I wasn't able to wear their regular sizes at all last year. That's an encouragement. I needed cheap t-shirts.

Ok, off to clean a room and grocery shop. Operation Slim Down continues.

STRESS...and food

This last week I have been so up and down with my eating. I am pretty much exactly where I was a week ago. That's fine overall, but I really want to lose weight. I can't do the super tight Paleo. When I do, I start eating huge portions of meat. It's all very strange. So, I have started using my WW tracking software to help control my portions.

I am under a lot of stress right now. My boss changed at work. My workload is exponentially increasing as he comes up with new projects. Finances have been particularly tight. Days packed with emotional memories have surrounded me. It's just a lot to take in and my coping mechanism has always been eating. I am doing 4,000 times better than I would have 5 years ago..but still, there is a small part of me left that says, "I feel so crappy that I just want to have a little joy and ice cream/queso/whatever horrible food for me brings that momentary release."

That's how temptation is, isn't it? For a moment it seems to relieve the pain. There is a moment of joy, but then there are the consequences. A friend of mine says, "Future Chris is not going to like this." If we could just stop in the moment and think through what brings ultimate joy, how much better would we feel physically?

Right now, I really want a margarita (or 5), cheese dip and chips and a big, sloppy burrito. But I won't.

Yea, so...

The first five days of the challenge did no go so well. So, starting over tomorrow. AGGGH! Why this so hard?

Here we go, again!

Otherwise, all is well.

Paleo Challenge: Day 1

Day 1 Stats

Weight: 222 lbs UGH!

Wake-up

Crossfit
Bench Press 5x5 - 85 pounds

WOD (my version)
7 Pull ups
15 Chest Press (20 lb dumbbell)
8 Abmat Sit ups
35 Jump Ropes
100 m sprint
AMRAP 20 minutes - 5 rounds/30 reps

Breakfast
3 eggs
2 strips of Applegate Farms bacon
1 cup of steamed broccoli
1 banana
Probiotic/hormone support/Vitamin D

Lunch
Chicken/sausage/shrimp
2 cups of salad
20 macadamia nuts

Dinner
Protein shake (2 scoops Energy First, 8-12 ounces almond milk, fruit of some kind/ice -1 TBSP Coconut oil)
Broccoli

Paleo Challenge: Day 1

Well, I am going to do it. I want to scream, but I am going to do it. Today is Day 1 of a 30 day Paleo challenge. No cheats. No compromises. I'm still on the fence about dairy but pretty on track with everything else.

We have the pictures below and my starting weight is 222. I'm stuck between 220 and 222. Let's see if we can get out of the 210s in this challenge. Woo hoo! I will be SO happy when the 200s are just a faint memory. Here we go. Will write more on what I eat later.