Sunday, December 18, 2011

Months away

Well, I haven't really blogged in months. Work has been busy. CrossFit has continued, but my diet has been soft. I am staying within a 5 pound range, but I don't like it. I am ready to complete the weight loss portion of this journey.

Honestly, not eating the proper diet and CrossFitting is really frustrating. It just feels like you are beating your body up. You don't recover as quickly. You don't gain strength as quickly. You don't see results.

I am not an inherently athletic person. Let me rephrase that. I hate almost all physical activity. If I had my druthers, I would sit on my keister all day long and watch TV and eat lavish meals with people. That is the true Bethany. However, that lifestyle makes me feel like dog poo. My back hurts. I quickly gain weight. I don't feel good about myself.

So, I CrossFit and eat Paleo (and I am talking ideally right now) because of how it makes me feel. I love the people, too. I love the feeling of accomplishment. I love seeing my body change. I love being able to walk uphill and up stairs with no problems. I like fitting in airline seats. I like being able to look in the mirror at the hair dressers without going into a major funk. I like the results of being athletic. I just don't like the actual activity. There is a point in every workout when I think, "I really don't like this, I should quit and do something I like."

However, nothing else gave me these results. Not the elipitical or treadmill or body pump or zumba. So, I continue and pray that when I get to my goal I will hit a "CrossFitters high" where all the pain and huffing and puffing will feel amazing. It could happen.

So, I am writing this now because the New Year is two weeks away. I will start blogging, again. I will take more pictures. I will journal the last half of this transformation. I'm ready for it. I feel that focus kicking back in. Let's do this!