Day 2

Breakfast

Breakfast is Served!!!! Yum, yum. Right there you will find 2 eggs cooked in coconut oil, organic celery, 1/2 a sweet potato diced and cooked with coconut oil and s/p and 2 turkey maple sausages. YUMMM!!! Coffee with coconut creamer

Lunch

4-6 ounces of rot. chicken

2 cups of spinach

1/2 avocado

celery

Brianna's dressing

small banana

Snack

24 raw almonds

Dinner

Chipolte salad

Greens

sauteed veggies

Chicken

Guacamole

Salsa

Workout

Crossfit

Warm up

WOD:

25 ring pulls

25 push ups

25 abmat sit ups

25 squats

400 M Run

4x for time - took me 38:13

Today, I did 3 real push ups for the first time!!!

Clean Eating Challenge: Day 1

Well, I have officially finished eating for the day. The sugar withdrawl is KICKING MY TAIL. No matter. I will survive. Instead of sitting at home pondering my sugar withdrawl, I have planned a walk with my neighbor. Oh yea. Kicking this transformation into HIGH GEAR.

Today went like this:

Wake-up
Crossfit at 5:45 a.m.
Warm-up, 5x5 on presses (max at 75...I can do more!) and modified WOD (for my back injury)

• 10 shoulder presses (45 pounds)
• 10 air squats
• 20 sledge hammer swings (16 pounds)

AMRAP 20 minutes (9 rounds/2 reps)..my shoulders were SCREAMING!

Breakfast

Protein shake (8 ounces almond milk, 1 TBSP coconut oil, 4 strawberries, hand of spinach, 2 scoops of whey protein - blend that bad boy up)

Cup of coffee with coconut creamer (1 hour after shake)

Lunch

Salad - 2 cups of spinach, red pepper, 1/2 avocado, 4 ounces chicken, Brianna's dressing, 1/2 cup of pineapple

Snack

24 raw almonds

Dinner

2 eggs, 1 slice of cheese, 2 turkey maple sausages, raw red pepper slices, 1/2 cup of pineapple, 1 TBSP coconut oil

TONS OF WATER...fish oil, 2 DSF for adrenals, 2 Thyroid Support

Walking with neighbor, shower, bed...up for Crossfit again tomorrow!

Coming out of the dark...

After several months of stagnation, I am coming out of the dark. For real. Today I start a 30 day Paleo challenge. I should say 'Eating Clean' challenge because I'm not sure I'll be 100% Paleo.

I will enter my food here every day for the next 30 days. This will take me to Easter's doorstep - the day my parent's come. I will enjoy their visit for a weekend and then start the next 30 day challenge.

Every Winter I struggle with depression and a big break up took me down at the same time. I feel like a new woman today - ready to do this.

I need to get some pics. Will try!

Dang Curtis Ps

Ok, you can barely see me in this shot - I'm in the WAY back behind the girl in the black. I'm making great progress, right?! LOL! I never make the blog. I don't know if my pictures always come out horribly, Jason doesn't want to demoralize me, or he's trying to show fit people getting fitter...rather than fat people getting fit!

Regardless, there I am doing 100 Curtis Ps with a 35 pound barbell. I originally had 45 on there but knew that was not going to work for 100. So, 20 at 45 and 80 at 35 pounds...and let's not forget the other 60 pounds I'm carrying on my body. As I finished, I was suspicious it meant the end of walking as I knew it. I was right.

HOLY COW Curtis P. What is your problem?! Twice yesterday my quads seized up on me. I am walking like a 97 year old. I want the use of my legs back people. Please!

If you don't know what a Curtis P is...it's a hanging power clean, keep the bar at your shoulders and do a right lunge, then a left lunge, then push press it overhead. Repeat 100 times. Oh please legs, come back to me. I'll try not to be so stupid in the future.

The Scale

I honestly want to throw my scale in the ocean. It goes down four pounds, up three. I have HAD it. I know my body is changing - just not as quickly as I would like. Why, exactly, do I have a timeline? If this is truly a lifestyle change, why is there a timeline in mind? I didn't gain weight on a timeline. I just ate horribly and was inactive day in and day out. The weight followed. I am hoping the inverse is true.

I called a friend this morning to vent. She said, "Girl, you need to focus on the doing, not the results. Continue to make healthy choices and challenge your body physically and you will see results. It may not be something you see today or even next week - but you will in the long term."

It's true. I guess I have just heard so many horror stories of people doing the right things and gaining weight that I am paranoid to go one day without checking the scale. I was out of this mindset before I started Crossfit but victory on the scale brought me back under its spell.

I am not going to throw the scale out but I am going to limit myself to weighing once every couple of weeks. I know when I'm doing the right things and when I'm not. I just need to focus on the process and I need to enjoy it. Stressing out about it is raising my cortisol levels and making me feel insecure. So what if it takes me 3-4 years to take all the weight off. This isn't a diet, it's my life - and this is the way I choose to live long term. Thankfully, many of my friends live and eat the same way. Woo hoo!

So, no more hyper focus on the scale. Here we go.

Going Public

Ok, I am at a place where I think I am ready to go public with this blog. I finally feel like I'm on this and I am seeing results and I am ready to have other people join along. Nothing irritates me more than someone who writes a review for a diet book or exercise program on Amazon who hasn't actually done the diet. Knowledge is one thing - application is a totally different animal.

I humbly say that I am walking this out. As strong as I feel today, I could feel like a pea tomorrow. It's the ebb and flow of our physical life. Shoot, Crossfit shows me that daily. Some days you are firing on all cylinders and some days you can barely get out of the gate. Nurtition is a big piece of that. Why, if we know that is the key to looking and feeling good, is it so hard to stay on track with good nutrition? Why do I want ice cream and cake and candy so much when I know where that moment of enjoyment leads?

Yes, I know blowing this blog up will require pictures, meal plans, commenting and feedback...but I think I'm ready. The worst part is going to be having my weight out there. I'm pretty sure this will kill my chances of getting a date anytime soon! "Hi..this is my girlfriend...she weighs as much as a Steelers wide receiver." C'est la vie.

Here we go folks. Let's get this out there!

CrossFit Total

Today was Crossfit Total. Here are the results:

Backsquat: 135
Press: 85
Deadlift: 175
Total 395

I am happy with this because I had a virus earlier in the week that resulted in horrible body aches and then complete exhaustion and weakness. So, to come back and be above where I was last week - I'll take it!

My trainer sent around a chart from Crossfit. It was organized by bodyweight. If I went by what I weigh now - I still fall in the 'untrained' category. Jason said I should look at ideal bodyweight. Well, alrighty - I am intermediate. WOO HOO!

I am happy with this for right now. I expect it to get exponentially better. My diet is tight and when my diet is tight and I am there 4-5 times a week, I get crazy big strength gains.

Yeah Me!